08/10/2026 And here I am again. I even uploaded some new Art this time: "A Lament for the Incognoscenti 4" although I'm not to happy with it. But I'm glad I finally got back to making a Piece. "So why did you do basically nothing this September" one might ask. Well that my dear reader (if you exist) is simply explained by me being a Student (and a lazy piece of shit). I spend the entire month of September writing a 20-Page Paper for my History Degree and the bit of free time I did have, I spent on finishing everything I need to run a Cyberpunk RED Campaign set in my Hometown. The Campaign btw will start in the beginning of November, and I'm pretty excited. But yes so Paper and Cyberpunk didn't leave much time for making Art or updating this Website. And here's the kicker: I'm not even done yet, ill have to write 2 more papers, totalling 30 Pages. And next week on the 12th the Winter semester starts in German Unis, so ill probably won't have much more free time in October than I did in September. Probably. So yeah didn't have a break again this Semester, which makes it the second time in a row this has happened. I love this degree, but I'm starting to break under how much is expected of me
21/09/2026 So it's been almost a month since I updated this site. What happened you might ask? Well nothing special honestly, Uni Work just took over. I have really not been doing much else but writing my Paper about British Treaty Politics in the 19th Century. This is it how it goes every exam period. I'm just mad at my self that I didn't do much in August, because then I'd actually would have been able to do less in a day (meaning I'd have time for other things) and still get done in time. But alas one can't change the past, only the future! In other news it's been a weird Month politically here in Germany, the fascist won a local election and did really well in 2 others. But so did more leftists party, though not to the same extent. The Conservative Democratic Centre seems to be collapsing slowly, because our Chancellor is such a huge prick. Ahh, 2033 might be fun :(
31/08/2026 Summer is ending and I've wasted August. I have done barely anything for Uni this month. I still have three papers to write, and all deadlines are now a month closer. No word written, barely any text read. It not too bad yet, I still have time (at least I think) but it's just frustrating to know, that if I had started working honestly at the beginning of the month one paper would be done and another would have progress on it. That way I would have been done before the lecture free period is over and could have actually enjoyed a holiday. But no I preferred to waste time neither relaxing nor working instead of working first and then relaxing after. I hate this, why am I like this? Also, my Backpack broke, and now I'm stuck with a shitty one, that's barely large enough to hold my Laptop :( Any way here's a cool Website I found, it has some edgy but touching poetry on it.
29/08/2026 The Honeymoon Phase ended surprisingly quickly, I'm now more neutral on Cyberspace. I still think it's a wonderful platform that creates an alternative to Corpo Social Media. But I think its strange that it is functionally just that: a social Media Platform. The only difference is really that It's owned by a person instead of a Megacorp like Google or Meta. But what would stop it from becoming like them if it were to be more popular with the masses? Nothing, beyond the moral integrity of Khan. But who is Khan anyway? I simply don't know enough about him to trust him, but what I've seen does not inspire confidence! He posts AI-generated Images all the time (Anti-Corpo Rebel my Ass!) and Cyberspace gets a massive Software update every day, which even if one, like me, understands almost nothing about IT, still makes the Site reek of Vibe coding. I'm not sure if that's true though, I just have suspicions. I have however heard of Federative Networks, that apparently are basically decentralized Systems instead of centralized ones like the current Internet. I struggle to understand it (as I think most people do, hence its unpopularity) but it seems to be way more of a genuine difference to the Corpoweb, then Cyberspace. I'm gonna hang out in Cyberspace for now while checking out Federative Alternatives, but i definitely stopped loving it like in the first days. (p.s also Khan is bloating it, with so much useless shit. He added a Web hosting service like Neocities??? Why??)
26/08/2026 Yesterday I made a Banner for Cyberspace and posted it on Cyberspace. Some responded with "I got you" and then posted an “improved” Version of my Design. That is not really a problem, I'm glad people a remixing it, because remixing is an important part of Art. What confuses me is the "I got you". What do you mean? I didn't need you to “improve” it, what did you get?
25/08/2026 Finally added my free commission Site. Let's see if anyone will ever use it haha. Probably not.
24/08/2026 I was incredibly fucking sick the last 2 Days. Wasn't really pleasant experience. But today I finally found the energy to work on a new piece of Art: "A Lament for the Incognoscenti". I think it turned out rather fine. My Goal was specifically to make a Design, that is a lot more busy and overwhelming than the ones I made before. And I think that it worked out pretty well. I'll probably make a series out of it too. Like the last one, it's also based on premade text (this time "A pickle for knowing ones" by Timothy Dexter) which makes it a lot easier to use text as an element of the Art and less as an information vehicle.
22/08/2026 I joined Cyberspace and you should too. It's a wonderful small indie Social media. It's great. Also finished the first of 2 Maps for the West-German Smuta today. It took me 18 Days ??!!! More than two weeks working on the dumbest possible Sidetrack ever. I haven't made anything else in 18 Days :(
18/08/2026 It's my two and half year Anniversary with my beautiful, wonderful, charming, nice, funny, beautiful, lovely Boyfriend!!!!! I am so glad you are part of my life dear^^ A quarter of a decade isn't that insane!? I can't believe I got to experience so many things with you: Nice days at the zoo; watching Shameless; helping you move with my dad; going to the hospital with you many a Sunday, because you were panicking about being sick; spontaneously DMing Raccoon Tycoon one your Birthday; getting up with your every morning at like 4am to bring you to the U-Bahn; stealing food from the Chinese Buffet; watching Eurovision three times in one week; going to watch Deadpool in Cinema to make a sad day end well; and every other moment we got to spend together. I truly cherish it all. I love you Eugene <3
16/08/2026 Found this website today. Its was beautiful to read the Diary of this teenage girl from 2019. I felt like I had been transported into a past long ago. Of course, it's not actually been that long since 2019, only 7 years, but 2020 genuinely felt like a huge break. Nothing after ever felt like it did before. For me personally it was also the beginning of a mental health struggle that's going on to this day. So perhaps the distant past of 2019 just reminds me that I had a normal childhood, even though my teenage years were taken from me by a virus. Also, Reddit now requires an account to scroll, which has resulted in me just not using it any more haha. I mean I deleted my account a year ago for a reason.
14/08/2026 I saw an interesting Video today, about minimalist Film Poster and how there is a whole community of people who basically make their own alternative Film Posters to Films they like. Basically a Form of Fanart. This is really cool to me and I'm feeling inspired to do this for some of my favourites. No Idea what Style i'll try to do yet, but it seems fun. But only once I'm done with the map I'm making rn, which has again consumed about 2 weeks of my life. On another note, I feel like my Series "The Gospel according to Matthew/C++" is over. It's not that i don't like it, far from it actually, I had a lot of fun using text more as a visual tool instead of it trying to convey any meaning. And ill defiantly will want to work more in that direction. But rn again I'm thinking of nothing but maps haha.
12/08/2026 Saw the Solar Eclipse today in Germany, it wasn't a total one, like in Spain, but it still covered about 84.9% of the Sun. Being a child of modernity, I expected it to be a simply intellectual curiosity and nothing more. But when the sun fades, it lights dims and the so familiar ball of light becomes a sickle, it has a primal effect on you. It has too. After all we are still animals, living in a universe so vast it defies all comprehension. For a moment I felt connected to the past of our species, like a Hsi and Ho, like a Lydian Soldier in the heat of battle that suddenly stopped, like a Parisian child in 1921, who's understanding of the world was just demonstrated to be a distinctly human one. We are so small and the sun towers above our heads. The Sun would be the start of any human story. For a story of the sun, we are not even remotely relevant. Anyway drank a beer smoked a cigarette while looking at it, like a true child of modernity.
05/08/2026 I turned 22 on the third!!! I celebrated by eating cake, my dad made, with my Oma and my Uncle (and my dad ofc) and later I hung out with some Friends of mine. There wasn't really a big Party yet, but it's currently getting organized. In other news, all my free time has been currently consumed by me writing a timeline of Europe from 1989 to 2045 for a campaign of Cyberpunk Red I'm planning on hosting. Also, I feel deeply unproductive in regard to uni. I struggle to find any kind of motivation to do my things. Maybe cause all the Deadlines are almost two Months away.
25/07/2026 Finally got around to updating my Website again and I also made some Art. The last two Weeks been crazy busy with Uni Stuff. I had to hold a Presentation on The British Empires Anti-Slavery Foreign Policy. It went well, but could definitely have been better. Other than that a friend of mine had some really terrible things happen to them, which of course also required a lot of energy. But hey at least the next Weeks are not going to be any better! Yay! Ok lets hope no other Friend experiences some traumatic shit, but I'll definitely have to write two 20-Page Papers and one 8-12 Page Paper. I love this Degree, but it genuinely eats up 90% of my Time.
16/07/2026 More or less diligently I read the text, but a plan refuses to appear. In the good old days this wouldn't have happened. RETVRN to a past not real or a future lost on the way.
13/07/2026 I got my own Tabling by TabF5. You can see it on my Mainpage^^
09/07/2026 I spent almost 12 whole hours in the Library today, doing research for my Presentation in two weeks. And while I did get some reading done, It's remarkably little for how much time I spent here. I guess I have to get back in the groove after such a chill Semester.
08/07/2026 I read so much for Uni, but in my Research i almost never need the entirety of a Book. I wonder if I should count a Book I read half the chapters off as read. Probably not, but then again it also shouldn't count as not read at all. Perhaps partially read would be a fitting Category.
07/07/2026 Today I finally got around to make an Album Cover for my Friend Dios Song: "Chiptune Song in D Minor" It's a bit different from what I normally do, but I had a good time making it. It's in the Other Section when looking at my Art. Also, I saw today that Onio.Club closed. Sad Day for the Internet, it was Onio that got me into this, but I'm sure for every Chatroom closing there will be two emerging to fill the void they left behind. Still I'm sorry for everyone that never got to experience Onio.Club, it will be remembered.
06/07/2026 The Responsibilities of Uni are slowly beginning to ramp up again, but right now I'm trying to make time for everything and half way succeeding. It's difficult to find time to do Uni, be social, do art and enjoy other art. I feel like I never have enough time. And I'm sad.
02/07/2026 Had a rather uneventful Week so far, however Uni Works seems to be catching up on me, as I have a Presentation in 3 weeks. I haven't texted the other Members of the Group yet, cause I'm procrastinating. Dick move on my part honestly. Other than that I started a new Art Series, that I'm really excited for: “The Gospel According to St. Matthew/C++”. It's a homage to Hybrid RPG, one of my favourite weird Texts on the Internet. It's basically a completely non-functional nonsensical tabletop RPG.
28/06/2026 The Concert was wonderful, my friend has a beautiful voice, and it was a joy to listen to her. But after I really had to rush to get the rest of my obligations done, so I didn't have time to congratulate her in person. I hope she forgives me.
28/06/2026 I'm always embarrassed by how little reading I get to do for myself, I mean I really want to read but i just never get around to doing it. I mean in an average Semester Week I probably have to read a good 100 to 150 pages and in the semester “break” more like 500. So that just leaves very little time to read fiction. In other news, rn I'm feeling kinda sick, but I want to go to a concert later, to support my friend playing there. Why must being a good friend be so unpleasant?
27/06/2026 This Heatwave is still going on, and It's still pretty much unbearable. I think it's starting to make people aggressive. My Boyfriend and I are fighting more, my Professors are getting more emotional during lectures and I overhear people on the street fighting so often these Days. None of us are meant for this.
25/06/2026 I had to do sports today. I work out outside in a park. It wasn't pleasant.
23/06/2026 Heat unbearable
Spring turned to Summer quickly
Hell on earth is here
22/06/2026 I have to read Henry Sidgwick for a Seminar and i think this man is literally the most boring Philosopher to have ever lived. Like seriously i fell asleep reading him today.
21/06/2026 My Boyfriend bought an AC and my God It's so much more bearable now in this flat. Also, I finally caved and installed VS Code, so I can instantly deploy my code to Neocities with an Extension, while that means being reliant on another Microsoft Product, I still think it's worth it for how much easier it makes updating this Website. Anyway, yesterday me and my Boyfriend went to a Party, specifically to introduce him to another friend of mine. Well we ended up seeing her for like 20 min and then left the party to watch the Football Game with two Women we had just meet. They were genuinely charming, and we had a good time, didn't hurt that Germany won the game haha.
19/06/2026 It is again terribly warm today, so I mostly stayed inside. Still sweating like hell though. But I skipped out on Uni and implemented Glightbox for the Gallery in the Art Section. Took really long, looks really similar, but it feels so much better now.
18/06/2026 I hate the Weather in this godforsaken town. On Monday it was cold, cold enough in fact the best thing to wear was a winter jacket. Today it's gonna be 31 Degrees. How is one supposed to adjust the climate having fucking BPD. In other news, I'm scared my interest for this Website is suffocating the hobby I originally made this website for: my Art. But maybe it'll fix itself naturally.
16/06/2026 Got to mosquito bites on my Ankle after doing sports today. Fuck me. Also watched "Ladies First" by Thea Sharrock, which ended up being weirdly sexist to women while trying to be empowering. So basically a man's feminism. Also, it sucked ass in general.
15/06/2026 So the Blog is done. Im still not sure if anyone actually cares about this, but incase somebody does: "hi, how u doing? whats a girl like you doing in a place like this?"